I remember in the early days of Eckankar; feeling all the love in just being around total strangers that felt like lifetime friends. We didn’t have to have any thing in common. We were connected by our desire for truth and to live beyond a convention that was stifling. I remember attending the seminars and absolutely falling in love with everyone I met. I could talked to anyone in attendance and let my guard down because the love was so incredible that there was nothing to defend. I felt such freedom and happiness that I made it a priority to go to as many Seminars as possible so I could experience the love and truth.
But something happened along the way. I still was devoted to the teachings but the priority changed within them. It was a subtle change but it became about supporting the drive to reach seekers rather than to support the ones already present in the group. There was a subtle pressure to volunteer. Because isn’t that where the love is? But the more I gave, the less I felt that original ambiance of unconditional acceptance and higher consciousness. Even the talks became more about sharing the experiences of people who had written in letters rather than sharing something original from the top. I got the sense others felt this too but dare not say it. It was Eck blasphemy. So I kept going to the seminars and wistfully missed that spiritual feeling that I once had. I even chalked it up to being older and that was just an experience for new people or the young. I missed the joy of the seminars and obediently went through the motions.
I have been doing these group sessions with a woman I met on facebook. They have been amazing. She has an incredible likeness to Madame Blavatsky. I remember Paul writing about what Madame Blavatsky wrote and she was the first one to claim to work with Masters that were hundreds of years old in their physical body. There are many coincidences that connects them besides the writing style and likeness. Madame Blavatsky’s first book was published in Rochester NY. She wrote of Rochester NY in the first edition of ISIS Unveiled. She wrote that Rochester was a gateway for energies from the higher worlds to pour into the physical world. I was in Rochester this weekend for Jen’s very first weekend retreat.
I cried for much of the weekend because I felt the unconditional love and timeless happiness that I had experienced my first Eck Seminars. She was speaking such great truths that I was so desperately hungry to hear. What I thought was lost forever, I felt once again this last weekend. I could even feel the presence of the Ancient Ones through her. No offense but the Ancient Ones don’t appreciate being diminished to mascots for an agenda. They made themselves known to the world to perpetuate higher truth.
Jen says truth and Love resonate at similar frequencies. The reason there is not more love in the world is because there is so little truth. Jen pours truth and love out to all who attended. At one point, she went around the room and downloaded all she has of truth and love into every attendee. She said if two phones can share information this way, how much better two people can share the same way. It was a lot of people’s favorite part of the weekend. She isn’t here to start a group. She says she shares in the spirit of sisterhood. She gives everything she can to empower the world to balance the divine feminine with the male energy. The world has been operating from a male slanted point of view and so everything we know is based on a half truth. I wish all my friends who have been seeking could experience what I did this weekend. I found the Joy that I thought was lost in youth.
It is scary to share with everyone. I may be considered a heretic. But it is worth the possibility if just one person reconnects to the love and truth they thought they had lost. Ask the Masters. They whole heartedly support Jen. If you can tune in to them, you will know this too.