I facilitated a session with a young woman contemplating motherhood. She had many reservations which manifested as deep confusion. The first thing that she would not admit to herself was that although she loved her husband, it was not a storybook romance. Their relationship didn’t reach the depth of fairy tale romances. She was concerned about being connected for life to her husband as the father of her baby.
When I tuned in, I knew that she was harboring all the feelings about motherhood. But the baby that she was carrying was a true fairy tale love. Her husband was the perfect father that would give this baby what he needed. This perspective reassured her.
The next issue was all these dynamics with her mother. She did not want to be annoyed with the baby like she was annoyed with her mother her whole life. She also didn’t want to be like her mother. She identified negative traits with motherhood. I led her through a series of taps that brought some relief. But then more disturbing layers were revealed.
She described the feeling of being led through her life and losing control. The imagery of a past life emerged. She was being led to slaughter. Slowly and methodically she was moving closer and closer to her horrific death. There was no compassion, there was no kindness, just a methodical bludgeoning. This is the feeling that was being subliminally evoked every time she had a major milestone in her life. She felt that each event was a step closer to a horrific outcome. Motherhood was just another step closer to death.
When I helped her release this relationship, I inadvertently coughed. She told me that when I coughed, she had a strange tingling on the roof of her mouth. She was getting a sense of the imagery that I saw when I coughed. She was a newborn. She was unwanted, maybe because she was born a girl. She was put in a burlap bag at birth and taken out to the pond and drowned. This caused her to confuse birth with death and death with love. When she learned about this lifetime, it made her realize why she got freaked out when she thought about the amniotic sac. In her baby body, she confused the burlap sac with the amniotic sac.
As she was releasing these old engrams, images of many mother’s day cards with wonderful sayings were running through my perception. It was if a higher definition of motherhood was being downloaded into her. She felt much lighter. It was like untangling confusion and peeling off layers of trauma at the same time. The baby will now open her up to a love she has not experienced in so many of her lifetimes. It will almost be a means to actualize all the work we have done together and for her to truly and deeply experience an incredible, ethereal love.
Here are some of the taps on Motherhood.
(Say each statement three times out loud while tapping on your head and say it a fourth time while tapping on your chest.)
I release defining motherhood as being controlling, in all lifetimes.
I release defining motherhood as being needy, in all lifetimes.
I release defining motherhood as negative, in all lifetimes.
I release defining mother as the enemy, in all lifetimes.
I release the fear of becoming my mother, in all lifetimes.
I release the fear of being hated, in all lifetimes.
I release the fear of losing my freedom, in all lifetimes.
I release the fear of letting my baby down, in all lifetimes.
I release defining motherhood as imprisonment, in all lifetimes.
I release relating motherhood with looming death, in all lifetimes.
I release the fear of being trapped by motherhood, in all lifetimes.
I recant all vows and agreements between myself and motherhood, in all lifetimes.
I remove all curses between myself and motherhood, in all lifetimes.
I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and motherhood, in all lifetimes.
I remove all the pain, burden, limitations, and engrams that motherhood has put on me, in all lifetimes.
I take back all the Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Life, and Wholeness that motherhood has taken from me, in all lifetimes.
I redefine Motherhood as Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Life, and Wholeness, in all lifetimes.