Ten years ago in March, I was laying on a cold basement floor resolved to die of starvation. I would wake up before sunrise and wait for the captor to give me the command to get dressed to prepare and work outside until after sunset. I would frantically dress and await for him to drill me about my dreams. He was looking for any information he needed on what the next step was in my demise.
Little did either he or I know, my spirit guides were preparing me to have the strength to get myself out of there in two days. They would show me the apartment that I would live in one short month later and showed me the new people who I would meet in my new life. Most everyone that I had known before the captivity would not accept me back into their world. Only a couple special gems would embrace me after disappearing for a year.
The captor could not possible know that every night, I was taken to this seminar atmosphere that was set up for many visitors. It was a recurring dream that I had every night. I would be in a hotel setting that was prepared to receive a lot of guests at this special event. Sometimes I sat in the seats like everyone else. But sometimes I was in a back hall that I realize was in front of everyone.
In the first few months, there were only a few people who were sitting in the chairs. It comforted me that they were there. They seemed to make it easier to get through the waking days. A very few were people I knew then that have remained in my life. The rest I did not know who they were. But it comforted me to be with them. It was as if being with them in the dream state kept me nurtured from an otherwise socially deprived existence.
Being with them kept me alive. At the end of my captivity the group swelled to multitudes. Now I know who those people were. They were you. The people who kept me alive with their company are the people here who read my posts and support me in sharing my gifts. Since time and space are an illusion and all is happening at once, you are nurturing that starving, cold deprived version of me so I could get here to assist you in totally awakening.
The resort setting is the Hotel that I will be facilitation my first retreat at this May 12th and 13th. I recognized the Woodcliff Hotel from my dreams when we went to check out the facility. The date was also chosen for me from a dream I had twelve years ago. It is at the same time as the international Lilac Festival in my home town of Rochester, New York. The Ancient ones who Guide me have had an agenda for me all along. They were feeding me the details in my dreams.
The dreams during captivity were of my spirit guides showing me how many people I would help just by surviving and sharing my gifts. I needed all that encouragement to overcome the daily torture, brainwashing, starvation, harsh weather, sleep deprivation and sensory deprivation that I endured. Knowing on a subtle level, that I would know all of you and have your love and support, kept me alive.
In two short days ten years ago, I will have made the journey to my freedom. I was half dead and terrified but alive and excited as well. All kind of fears and curses from the captor were met to get away from that experiences. It was surreal and unimaginable at the time. But it was done and the gifts that I now access, took a long time to be drawn out of a terrified brainwashed emaciated stupor.
The date of my escape is the only special day that I celebrate. I am mostly alone since my reemergence into society and live like a monk. I spend my days writing, doing healing work for individuals and the world and tending the needs of my furry family inside and out. This year, I a celebrating by opening up more and more to assisting others than I could not have possibly fathomed even knowing; except of course in my dreams. But on my anniversary this year, I will be
As a celebration of the anniversary of me surviving, I will be doing a book signing at the Barnes and Nobles in the Pittsford Plaza in my home town. Enlightenment Unveiled and Emerging from te Mist are the two books I will be signing. thanks to Thérèse and Mike Kravetz, I ave seven books to offer te world so far and more to come. All my books hold the intention of empowering each reader.
As a way to reach more and more of the community that has kept me alive, more and more venues have been created to connect with you. in allowing me to assist as many souls as I can in the world. Since I have returned, many people have experienced energetic shifts in themselves that have experienced great transformations. My goal is that everyone survive whatever limitations that may hinder them in any way. May they access their gifts and talents as a way to outflow their incredible love into the world
One of the side affects of surviving being starved and tortured nearly to death is the ease in which I am able to love. This love pours out into everything I write and you are all benefactors of that great resource now.Another way to connect deeper to those I love is the multiple group sessions that I facilitate weekly. They are accessible to those who really want to realize their own omnipotence in the world.
These are a couple of the ways you have access to me and my love and gratitude and specially honed gifts. I am fearless in speaking truth and empowering others because I went through the process of enlightenment and know that I was kept alive to do exactly what I do. I am grateful to have such purpose and am completely immersed in sharing all my gifts so that you can uncover all of yours.
I would love to see you at the retreat.