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A Dream to Help Understand Limitations of Male Domination

When I was born my father was 52. Since I was the  10th child and the 7th girl, he was already worn out. He had hardly anything left to give. I had a dream that seemed like an allegory for male-female dynamics. I don’t usually share my dreams, but this may help someone with a similar recognition.

I dreamt that I was in an old warehouse apartment where I lived when I was at one of my lowest times in my life. I was letting a teenage girl stay with me for a bit. It was painful having her in my living quarters. She was only into having a good time and not very thoughtful of others. She and her friend and I went over to her aunt’s house to see if she could stay there. It was chaotic.

At the aunt’s home, there was me, the aunt, the girl who stayed with me, her friend and the aunt’s friend. There was also Richard Gere, my brother (who never showed himself but was in another room) and my father. I was interacting with the aunt, trying to get this girl out of my home. She started inviting someone else to stay at my house. I was ruthless and shut her down telling her how it was not hers to offer. That felt good!

Richard Gere was walking around and talking to everyone at the party one on one. I was waiting for my time to be next. He came close, but he sat next to one of the cousins and ignored me. I was totally being ignored except the one time the aunt offered donuts and I took the largest one just to fill myself up. It felt like the big one was poofy enough to plug up the discomfort of being invisible.

My father was in this suit that he owned when we were kids. He was walking around to everyone and apologizing for his actions. He was really sad and pathetic as he went around asking for forgiveness and trying to elicit sympathy. Part of me wanted his attention. But then he went to the woman who was staying with me BEFORE me and asked her forgiveness. I was livid. He came to me last. I was ruthlessly angry with him for coming to me last. I cut into him with my anger and then walked out of the house leaving him pressed up against the door looking at me. Then I woke up.

Upon waking, I knew immediately why I was so angry. Richard Gere didn’t come over to talk to me because my dad hadn’t come over to talk to me. I realized at that moment that our relationship with men is directly related to our relationship with our father. The way that we experience our father’s treatment of us dictates how we will experience men treating us.

I believe this awareness is me “taking one for the team” of womankind. It was good that I was angry, Anger is higher on the survival scale than apathy. It is the step before peace. Here is to helping everyone get to a more peaceful relationship with themselves.

(Say each statement three times out loud while tapping on your head and say it a fourth time while tapping on your chest.)

I release doing things I don’t want so others will like me, in all lifetimes.
I release being taken advantage of, in all lifetimes.
I release having my kindness being misconstrued as weakness, in all lifetimes.
I release the habit of being used, in all lifetimes.
I release the need to be considered good, in all lifetimes.
I release giving away my innate essence, in all lifetimes.
I release compensating for being abandoned, in all lifetimes.
I release trying to earn love, in all lifetimes.
I release the belief that my only value is in giving of myself, in all lifetimes.
I release the belief that physical beauty is my greatest asset, in all lifetimes.
I release coming out of my center for others, in all lifetimes.
I release being passive, in all lifetimes.
I release being overlooked by male energy, in all lifetimes.
I release being invisible, in all lifetimes.
I release the belief that I am unworthy of love in all lifetimes.
I release buying love with sacrificial acts, in all lifetimes.
I release being abandoned by male energy, in all lifetimes.
I release gauging my worth by how men respond to me, in all lifetimes.
I release being subservient to men, in all lifetimes.
I recant all vows and agreements between myself and a male dominated existence, in all lifetimes.
I remove all curses between myself and a male dominated existence, in all, lifetimes.
I dissolve all karmic ties between myself and a male dominated existence, in all lifetimes.
I remove all the pain, burden, limitations and engrams that a male dominated existence has put on me, in all lifetimes.
I take back all the Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Confidence, Spirituality, and Enlightenment that a male dominated existence has taken from me, in all lifetimes.
I withdraw all my energy and support from a male dominated existence, in all lifetimes.
I transcend a male dominated existence, in all lifetimes.
I shift my paradigm from a male dominated existence to Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Confidence, Spirituality, and Enlightenment, in all lifetimes.
I am centered and empowered in Joy, Love, Abundance, Freedom, Health, Success, Security, Companionship, Peace, Life, Wholeness, Beauty, Enthusiasm, Contentment, Confidence, Spirituality, and Enlightenment, in all lifetimes.

These taps are good for men to do as well. There was another part of the dream: Heidi Klum was there and she was very beautiful. But when I started talking to her, an insecurity revealed itself. She is the epitome of beauty and success. Her insecurity in the dream was symbolic of a glass ceiling on female energy’s value as long as we are in a male dominated existence. The glass ceiling is being lifted. These taps will hurry it along for the individual. God Speed!

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